Yes, today's Thanksgiving. Usually the day that FAMILY gathers to give thanks with one another. The word family is getting to be less in my vocabulary. I guess I should be thankful for the family that I do have left. But, in these holiday times, its hard to not remember the love ones that are no longer here.
Today for me was just as any other day. I haven't left my house. Sure, everyone else is gathering together. But, this year, I don't feel like it.
I want to stay remembering last year, when Teresa was here. When her smile greeted me as I walked in the door. When her health was the topic of all questions. When only her "look" at the kids were enough to settle them. Funny, how she had such an impact on them.
Yes, I'm sure thankful to have awaken this morning. And for my kids and husband.
But, to gather and be thankful, Nope! I had to add my sister to another name in my family that's gone. Its too much to bear sometimes. Too many memories that are just that...memories. No more of them to make with her. Its permanent.
Now, we must live on with just memories.
So, for this Thanksgiving onward, I plan to make new memories. And to continue to tell my story of my sister memories too.
With that being said, will you share some memories of the loved one you've lost?
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